stopcryingkids’ blog

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ok ok this is all i can think about.. i have been crying about it for days..

the mom is crazy and i think she killed her.. i have been following this story and it makes me sooo sick.. i just wish she was alive.. but its kinda hard to believe that after her mothers car smelled like a dead body.. jfls;afkl;a;d

im just hoping and praying that shes alive..

woot woot my sons 1, even tho he weighs about 30 lbs.. as much as my 3 year old lolol..

today we are having cake AGAIN.. we had a party for him on saturday.. where im still eating cake from that night lol.. now we get more cake.. haha..

he wasnt too fond of the cake either.. it was priceless... he was shaking and making a face (just like the ones where you give a child a lemon) haha.. it was so super cute..

and about brian.. (the loser) um.. he came home last night and we cuddled and such.. hes not going to apologize for doing that stuff.. he still thinks he did nothing wrong (by going on a dating site when i had his baby and him taking off for days and days with no word.. hhhmm dating site + going away days apon days= im sure cheating) he lied to me over and over.. while im dealing with post partum depression and have two kids and he takes off doing hhmmm god knows what.. but yea i am the one whos the bitch and i should die.. whatever..

i think im staying with him because

1. im in love.. how pathetic is that..

2. we live together and i have no place to go.. i mean im sure i could find something

3. we have a baby together

4. its been 3 years

but once again.. i think i deserve it cuz im the dumb one to stay with him..

well this post started out happy and ended in crap..

so leighton was sooo deathly afraid of his sippys.. this kid is scared of change and is sooo stuborn.. but today he drank his whole sippy!! woot woot .. trying to get him off the bottle.. he will be one july 3rd..

and he stood up two times today.. go leighton

ok wow.. im sooo happy to get out of my house away from everything.. just something i can call my own.. i am still .. in my eyes, a stay at home mom.. but then again not.. i will be working everyday.. but only for 3 hours a day.. so enough to just get away and something to call my own..

AWWWW.. MY DAUGHTER JUST CAME OVER TO ME AND MOVED MY HAIR OUT OF MY FACE AND WHISPERE IN MY EAR, MOMMY I LOVE YOU..

wow i just melted.. but yea anyways lol

today most of the kids were not there.. so i get to ease into things i guess.. so tomorrow it will be a little different.. i will still be a little nevous going in tomorrow.. but nothing like it was today.. i felt soooooooo ill starting lol.. but whew PEOPLE IM A WORKING WOMAN NOW  hahaha lmao ..

so tonight when i got off work.. me and my best ran again today.. only once around the track.. but we need to ease into in.. we cant just run 5 miles right away :P

and i have someone to watch my kids on wed. .. my one friend brittnay.. so lets see how this goes..

god i love my vox.. thank god for christina (ILOVEYOU) lol i would be lost without this thing! :)

wow im so worried about tomorrow.. i start my first job.. and yet i still dont have a ride for my mom

some days my pap z can do it

some days my pap t can do it

her friend is doing it one day also

brian left a message on his parents phone to see if they can maybe once or twice a week..  im so scared to ask them.. they shouldnt have to.. . .. not at all..

this week i will be getting my permit for the THIRD time.. good lord.. i hope i can get my license finally..

also still dont have someone to watch my kids on wed. so yet i start this job tomorrow soooo unprepared.. i dunno what to do..

my son leighton just pulled himself up using the couch for the first time.. im so happy i wish daddy was home to tell him.. wow soo happy woot woot .. ok now back to real life..

so now my mom has to go to a physical therapist 3 times a week for her back.. this could be a bad thing with me getting this job and all. .. but then again.. she could just make her appts. in the morning and then come to my house to watch my kids.. i dunno i just hope she dont make her appts. late so she cant watch my kids and then i get fired.. oh boy..

leighton just got over being sick with a fever of 104.0 .. and now lyrika has got it.. her fever is 104.1 .. she dont seem that ill .. shes actually smiling and laughing and stuff.. but she does have a rash on ur belly ..

fever + rash = serious..

so tomorrow at 9:00am i have a dr. appt. for myself.. gotta get a shot for work.. oh boy.. and im just gonna call the dr. before i go and ask if they can squeeze her in with me.. if she was all lathegic and stuff i would be way more worried.. but she seems fine.. so they say not to worry too much.. give them meds and rest .. so lets see what they say tomorrow..

and i feel like shit.. cuz once again i couldlnt pay.. yea i will pay her my survery check.. um.. how bad does that sound..

oh NOT TO MENTION.. MY FUCKING BOSS WAS AT THE BAR AS IM GETTING DRUNK.. AHHHH  .. OH BOY GEAT HUH

GOODOD GOD.

god i fucking owe my best like 432-41285092750238025u78975329- dollars.. god im soooo lame..

welppers here we go.. it already started.. the crying and screaming and the mommy this and mommy that.. good god.. i was praying just maybe a half of day at least to be ok... but no no no.. i need a vacation of pampering.. not a vacation of cutting and gathering firewood and stuff..

wow, what the hell is going on here.. actually 2 days of fun.. i mean really

me and my best went tanning .. to sheetz and she bought me heaven (a perfect drink) then we went to the mall and got me a eenie teenie weenie bra.. then she bought me one .. so now i have .. what? 3 hahahaha then she bought me 5 guys.. WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE DATING :P lol

then later that night we went out for a couple drinks :)

then today i went to knoebels amusement park, with lyrika, mom, pap and more. i actually had a great weekend for once..

now tomorrow is real and not some happy time anymore.. blah

welp and thats that